Cycle Day 7

I cannot believe what just happened. I went in to take my last two pills of Cl.o.mid; while I was opening the package, one pill flew out and went straight down the bathroom sink. I tried to look down the drain but it was gone. L I took the one pill I had left but I can't believe it… I wanted to break down right there. We will see what happens now. It's all in God's hands. I should start testing on Sunday but if it goes as last time-day 14 will be Wednesday, a week from today. I am still having hot flashes and headaches. I looked it up on the internet. Hot flashes occur in 10% of women while headaches occur in 1%. I am so glad that I am in the minority!

I can't help but look at my beautiful children and wonder if I am asking too much. They are healthy and wonderful and there's 3 of them! Why do we want one more? I can't explain it but I feel like we will be complete at 4.

Cycle Day 5

I started taking Cl.o.mid on Saturday. I realized that I never wrote down what I was feeling when I took the Cl.o.mid last time. Josh said that I was well, pretty bitchy. I don't remember being bad but who knows. So I decided to write everything this time in order to remember if I EVER want to do this again.

The last couple of days have been pretty good. I don't feel like I am having many mood swings. Maybe we should ask the husband since he knows it all. J The main complaint that I have is that I feel so hot. I feel like I am having heat waves throughout the day. At night, I have to have a fan directly on my body and I haven't been using blankets either. I also feel like I am having a lot of headaches. Now I do get headaches on occasion anyway but not usually this bad. Other than that, I feel good physically.

Mentally, I am all over the place. I am anxious, worried, scared, terrified, excited, happy… I know that it is all in God's plan as to how many more kids I have and He won't give us more than we can handle…but more than one at a time would feel like it's way more than I can handle! The chance of multiples again is a big thing. I have convinced myself that if it is twins again-I can handle that-but more! I don't know… I am anxious to even know whether the Cl.o.mid is going to work in the first place. I will start testing next Sunday. I could be pregnant in less than 2 weeks! That is so crazy. The nurses tell me that getting pregnant again with the first insemination is very unlikely. Will it happen?!

In other news, Adey army-crawled for the first time today. She was so frustrated. I took away her toy and put it a few feet away from her. She cried and screamed but she finally did it! I couldn't get her to do it again today so we will have to see.

I’m Finally Learning…

I'm so excited. I never knew that I could type blog posts in Microsoft Word. I found out by accident. I always wondered how people got the pretty fonts on their blogs. What is weird that I tried to type on Microsoft today and copy and paste…that didn't work. I was doing my homework tonight. I pressed new for a new document and noticed that it asked me if I wanted to post a new blog. What?! This is totally awesome! I know, I'm a dork!

Testing

The decision has been made...

It has been decided…we are going to try for another baby. We haven’t told anyone yet. Josh really thinks we should make it a surprise for the rest of the family since we aren’t really able to surprise them with a “planned” pregnancy. Some people are going to think we are crazy. Our twins are 10 ½ months…money is tight…etc. But there are many reasons why we think the time is now.

We already know that we want to have a 4th child in the near future. We were going to wait until next year but have decided not to. The main reason is I want to go back to work at some point in the near future. I am in school right now. I will have my associate’s degree this December and will be starting my bachelor’s program in January. It will be 2 years from then until I graduate. If we have another baby, the girls will be in preschool and the baby will be 2 and hopefully ready for daycare. I will be able to go straight to work after graduating. We need this. We want to buy a house and pay down our debt. This just isn’t going to happen on 1 income. Both Josh and I do not want me to go to work for at least the baby’s 1st year or more. So if we wait until next year, I will have to wait to go back to work. Secondly, we are just plain excited to have another baby. I am a little worried about having multiples again, but I know that this is in God’s hands. It is all decided by Him.
Last month, I went in to my doctor to talk to him about having another baby. He did my yearly work-up and gave me the prescription for Clomid again. We signed all the consent forms for the IUI and were just waiting for my period to come. Then my gallbladder got infected. I had to have surgery in order to get it out. I was 4 weeks late having my period. I thought it was never going to come again… until…
YESTERDAY! Aunt Flo came to visit with a vengeance. So tomorrow I start the Clomid. We are taking 100 mg this time instead of the 150 mg that we conceived the girls with. If it all works out like last time, I should be going in for an IUI around October 7th. YIKES! This is happening… Pray for us.

Sick Babies

Ahh...!! The last 2-3 days have been crazy. First, Jocey got a runny nose. I was hoping and praying that it was only because she was teething but the next day Adey had a runny nose too. Full-blown colds came! Thankfully, they seem almost better because they have been so miserable. But I must say it was kinda nice yesterday when all they wanted was for me to hold them. I know those days are few now anyway and soon they will be obselete. :(

We are praying that my husband hears back about a new job that he applied for. It is for the same thing he was doing before but A LOT more money and full benefits. Praying... praying... praying!

Walk and Birthday

Today was the annual Walk for the Cure. This was the first year that we participated in it and it was really fun! Devanne loved looking at all the people. The girls were actually great and loved the BOB that we borrowed. I have to get one of those. I am going to post pictures later!

Today is also my husband's 27th birthday! We went to Red Robin with all of our family and friends. We had a great time.

Josh- I love you more than life itself. Thank you for being the BEST husband, BEST father, and my BEST friend! Here's to another wonderful year!